Sunday, February 6, 2011

Prologue I started this blog b/c my brain tends to get invaded by random ideas and I need a place to store them outside my head before they blow it up.  I'm not really sure where to start, but I guess an introduction of myself can't hurt.  I don't mean like "Hi, my name is so-and-so, I was born here, raised there, and I do this and that and I like these foods and this is my favorite color, blah blah blah.  That's what my Facebook profile is for ;).  This is meant to be more of an exploration of my inner self, the one that can't be easily defined by societal conventions and has no place to roam free.

Anyways, onto the introduction.  I consider myself a "Renaissance woman".  This is based off the idea of the "Renaissance man" I learned about in AP Euro in high school, where they were men who were skilled in art, music, literature as well as math and science.  Basically, they had varying interests and could use their abilities to cultivate and combine them.  This is exactly what I am and want to do.  I was born with good dna for math and science (thanks dad), but I also have an artistic side which refuses to be oppressed.  When I was growing up, they often declared war on one another and the net result was always bad (as war is a negative-sum game, and the summation was over, well, me).  But I'm come to realize that it doesn't always have to be that way, that when the two sides work together, they can achieve heights that neither could do alone.  So after years of long and tedious peace negotiations, during which it was not uncommon for one or both sides to threaten to walk out, I've finally managed to obtain a tenuous contract of collaboration.

And so now I can call in one to aid the other in its own territory.  Some examples (that I will expound on in upcoming posts), are my "proof" that good intentions do NOT lead to hell, my 3-phase theory of happiness, my quantum theory of utility, and other random things, such as writing a mathematical equation of love.  In this equilibrium b/w my two warring factions, I've also come to look at the world in a different way.  I don't believe in trust, blame, revenge, punishment (except as a deterrent), organized religion, many outdated social conventions, and free will.  But there is one thing that this experience has taught me I should believe in, and that, (yes, I know how corny this sounds, but it's true) is myself.

So here I am, to create a record of the existence of this thinking being that is me, in this world, for antiquity.