Tuesday, July 26, 2011


I believe that when looking at life, we must look at more than just our current position.  Motivation, despair, hope, and frustration are more dependent on life's derivatives than on it's value at any one point.

"The path to hell is paved with good intentions."  -A common phrase, and one that is shown to be FALSE with social calculus:

We assume hell is -inf on the axis of life value.  We assume you are born neutral, with an L(0)=0.  To "go to hell" then,  is to be approaching -inf. Your function L(t) may be negative, positive, may be going down (negative first derivative), or going up (positive first derivative), be concave (negative second derivative), or convex (positive second derivative).

If you have good intentions, but lack knowledge or have mistaken knowledge, this may make your position or trajectory negative.  However, if you continuously have good intentions, you will try to adjust and ameliorate your mistakes and ignorance and improve your life value.  Continuous feedback and adjustment means that the second derivative will continuously positive (well as continuous as humanly possible).  If the the function is convex, it will never approach -inf.  Hence the statement is wrong.

Tuesday, February 8, 2011

Chapter 1-1: True love's truths

Since Valentine's day is coming up (as the stores have been diligently reminding us since the day after Christmas), I thought I'd do a series on love.  The first thing is, of course, to define what I mean by love.  It is unfortunate that the English language only has one word for love, which can mean so many different things.  "I love you, mom", "I love cheesecake", "I love playing BANG! with you", "I love winning", etc.  But the kind of love I'm going to focus on is what some think of as "true love", that thing people seek to have with a partner that they care for, want to protect, and hope to spend the rest of their life with.

I do believe in that kind of love.  And as a logical result, I do not believe in jealousy.  I believe that if you truly love someone, you want him/her to be as happy as he/she can be, even if you can't be the one to provide that.  So if another person attempts to court your partner, then you accept that there are two possible results to the process:  1)  Your partner is happier with the other person, in which case you should let them be together, or 2)  Your partner is happier with you, in which case, he/she will eventually come to realize it and will stay with you.

I also believe somewhat in the theory that "opposites attract".  I believe that partners should have similar interests but opposite/complementary personalities.  If both partners are aggressive on a subject, then they will clash and fight (and even though I hear that make-up sex is good, it's probably detrimental to the longevity of the relationship in the long run), and if both are too demure on a subject, they won't be able to come to a decision and will end up frustrated with themselves and each other.  If both are too emotional, there will be a lot of pain and unnecessary drama in the relationship.  If both are too stoic, then the relationship will become cold.  Personalities that complement each other, bring out the best in each other, and make up for each other's weaknesses are the best matches.

Sunday, February 6, 2011


Umm...so I started this blog b/c my brain tends to get invaded by random ideas and I need a place to store them outside my head before they blow it up.  I'm not really sure where to start, but I guess an introduction of myself can't hurt.  I don't mean like "Hi, my name is so-and-so, I was born here, raised there, and I do this and that and I like these foods and this is my favorite color, blah blah blah.  That's what my Facebook profile is for ;).  This is meant to be more of an exploration of my inner self, the one that can't be easily defined by societal conventions and has no place to roam free.

Anyways, onto the introduction.  I consider myself a "Renaissance woman".  This is based off the idea of the "Renaissance man" I learned about in AP Euro in high school, where they were men who were skilled in art, music, literature as well as math and science.  Basically, they had varying interests and could use their abilities to cultivate and combine them.  This is exactly what I am and want to do.  I was born with good dna for math and science (thanks dad), but I also have an artistic side which refuses to be oppressed.  When I was growing up, they often declared war on one another and the net result was always bad (as war is a negative-sum game, and the summation was over, well, me).  But I'm come to realize that it doesn't always have to be that way, that when the two sides work together, they can achieve heights that neither could do alone.  So after years of long and tedious peace negotiations, during which it was not uncommon for one or both sides to threaten to walk out, I've finally managed to obtain a tenuous contract of collaboration.

And so now I can call in one to aid the other in its own territory.  Some examples (that I will expound on in upcoming posts), are my "proof" that good intentions do NOT lead to hell, my 3-phase theory of happiness, my quantum theory of utility, and other random things, such as writing a mathematical equation of love.  In this equilibrium b/w my two warring factions, I've also come to look at the world in a different way.  I don't believe in trust, blame, revenge, punishment (except as a deterrent), organized religion, many outdated social conventions, and free will.  But there is one thing that this experience has taught me I should believe in, and that, (yes, I know how corny this sounds, but it's true) is myself.

So here I am, to create a record of the existence of this thinking being that is me, in this world, for antiquity.